Monday, April 23, 2007

A New Chapter

I am but a little jar
overflowing with dreams.
I am a jar full of dreams
but I am just a little jar.

When the next dawn comes, a new chapter of my life begins. The next time the sun rises, my life as a university student ends and I shall awaken to a new day as a part-time yuppie and a part-time bum.

At this very moment, I have chosen to play Jim Chappel's Gone, a piano instrumental that I, for a strange reason, find to be very effective in moving me to tears. Every time I hear it, my mind is filled with images of people close to me in different states of death. Right now, I do think it is quite appropriate for, after all, this is a day of farewell.

There were a lot of regrets I was suddenly made aware of. I should have talked to him, smiled or said hello. I should have been nicer to her and helped her in the academic problems she's been having. I should have listened to him, laughed at her jokes, greeted this and hugged that. I guess one thing that really gets to me is the chances at friendship I have, now, lost. I suppose that, from this day onward I shall never hear from a lot of nice people ever again, simply because I have been to chicken to just so much as smile.

To all the people I have ignored, seemingly or for real, and to all of you who have been very nice to me, I'm very sorry for being the jerk you know I am. We may not meet again but if I could really go back, I'll take the chance to be your friend. To all those who have taken time to be nice to me, I will never forget your kindness; I may not be able to return it to you but I will pass it on to the friends I have yet to meet. To those who have been of hindrance to me, knowing or otherwise, I may resent you but I will treasure the knowledge my experience in interacting with you has given me; rest assure I have learned much and will be more crafty and sly the next time I meet people like you. To a select few of you people, if it weren't for you, I wouldn't have graduated today; as a matter of fact, I'd probably have graduated earlier.

Today, I sang the national anthem and the song of my alma mater with pride welling deep within me. Today, I am no longer a student but I will never cease to be a learner. Life goes on and continues teaching me beyond academics.

As of now, my memory of my batchmates begins fading and I cannot help but sorrowfully bid farewell to those I will never see, or remember, again. Today, there is a lot of people I would like to congratulate, however, I was, once more, too embarrassed to even extend my hand. Today, I have formally congratulated, wished luck on and bid farewell to only two people.

To everyone else who might be reading this entry, we most probably will never meet again. I regret not having spent time or paid attention to you as much as you deserved. I sincerely apologize for ignoring you guys.

To all of us, my sincerest congratulations. May we face the world better equipped with the knowledge the university has given us.

May we meet again; best of luck and fare thee well.

1 comment:

Corsarius said...

Congratulations, Mavi! Your post brings me back to those teary-eyed moments in my life. Yep, both graduation rites nearly moved me to tears :)